LOVE IS ACTION

MAY 15 : START OF LONG WEEKEND

Let me keep this short and sweet.
- this whole Montreal thing is so fckn mix up
- got amped and planned this so thoroughly for only disappointments
- i don't understand why we can't all just act like adults (since i can officially call myself)
- this is mosdef UNNECESSARY DRAMA
- i want to be excited for this trip , but i feel like i'll be faking it now
- faaack .
- i guess i should start packing .. JUST IN CASE we leave tonight , soooo unnecessary .

+ what a week ; another hectic one to come along :(
& " WHATEVER HAPPENS IN MONTREAL , STAYS IN MONTREAL " yeeeee ;) . .
( call my feelings mix up, bcoz they honestly are at this point ) .

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Friday, May 15, 2009

MAY 11 @ 11:24 a.m

it's almost 11:30 a.m., and i just got home from school .
i'm so lucky . being recently authorized with a higher title in student council , i asked if i could be excused from class today to come home extra early . used student council as an excuse yee . whatever , i needed to . this is my run down this fucking week :

MAY 11 (TODAY) : Religion essay due
MAY 11 (TONIGHT) : Night school cpt essay due
MAY 12 (TOMORROW) : International Business Test ANNND Law cpt essay due + Anti-Bullying Conference - being excused out of class again (y)
MAY 14 (THURSDAY) : Law - Mock Trial
MAY 15 (FRIDAY) : Religion Test + CPT for business

^ Ughhhh ! FML FML FML ! fucking stressful week . fuckity fuck fuck .
( k excuse my profanity , that was my 10 second vent )

on a good note , i finally got my print out of my marks from guidance that the Universities have :

Religion : 90%
International Business : 83%
Law : 83%
Challenges and Change (Night school) : 90%

Overall Average : 86.5% . . . 87%

yeeee boy , i'm amped . senior year with these kinda marks + extra-curricular + partying . . damn , i needa keep this up . i know business is going down for sure . whatevs , i still have time to bring them up / maintain this average . i WILL achieve my goal of graduating with Honours ! like , it's a MUST ! . . k so this is clearly a hectic , fucked up week , so uploading any pictures will be on hiatus + i shall update my weekend whenever i find the time. pray for me :(

p.s : MONTREAL LEGAL PARTYING IN 4 DAYS ! YEEEEEUH !

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Monday, May 11, 2009

2:54a.m. : OUTING x3

It's almost 3a.m and I just back home like 20 mins ago . Just finished eating bcoz i was starving . Chilled with Anton , Joy , Rap Rap , Derek , Greg Odicta , Anton's girl , Ero (sp.?) , Vernz , Alex , & Sam .

OUTING #1 :
After school , Derek , Joy, Greg & Vernz came to pick me up from d'Y . Got gas and it came up to $82.00 . . . damn , i'm mosdef. never gonna get an H2 . Dropped off the hummer & switched it to a different and smaller camry . Picked up rap rap from shoppers . Loafted around there for a bit . Joy and I saw some sexy tops . Going back there tomorrow to get some clubbing clothes for Montreal yeeeuh . After Shoppers we were supposed to watch a movie but I had to be back home to go to some . . . thing . . *ahem . . by 6:30 and it was already like 5:00 . We ended up meeting up with Sam , Rap's cousin - whom i met for the first time . they've been wanting me to meet him lol . pretty hot swag & car still , i'm not gonna lie . met up with him at timmies and struggled to buy iced coffee / cappuccino's and reg. coffee lol . pretty funny and poor looking . Then they dropped me home . Got changed quickly and dipped .

OUTING #2 :
Right after changing , *ahem picked me up to check . . some stuff . . ( someone particular might be reading shit ) . anywho , after that , my mom and i dropped by bcc for a hot minute to check out some clubbing clothes and i found the tops that joy and i saw at shoppers . tried it on with some overall short thing , and it looked bangin` hot . going back tomorrow to either bcc or shoppers to get my outfit . then went home .

OUTING #3 :
Got home around like 9:45ish then Greg called me up to come out and chill again . So i freshened up a little then around 10:30 Sam came to pick me up with Joy , Vernz & Greg . Went to Century Billiards . played pool . . havent played pool in like a bajillion years , real talk . i dont even know how to play lol . but i had fun , regardless . fucking PEOPLE made me feel sooo uncomfortable . way toooo fast brejin . i didnt wanna embarass thingy in front of e v e r y o n e . so yeah , touchy touchy , ekkkk (n) . anyway , Greg and i were partners for mostly all games . won 1 out of the 2 games we played . oh and some next UNWANTED drama occurred . . soo extra . i don't understand , like why ? why must there always be a scene with EXTRA people ? i wouldda had joy's back regardless , even though that hoe wouldny most likely have mine lol . Loafted after in the parking lot , sang , rapped , joked around . Went to timmies again to loaft some more since the drivers had to sober up . had some real talks . cock blockers . . i hate that whole statement , but im glad it worked LOL . mix up . like wtf did i do ? soo random , it's only been like one day , wth ? daaang , who's got game now ahaha . k whatevs . china dude kept calling me and i had to ignore it because of the long distance charges on my cell . felt real bad , he knew i was out with mandem . . im not doing anything bad so i have nothing to hide . some next mix up happened right before we cut , but it's aiight now . but yeah , now china and i arent on good terms . . the usual . . bcoz i got home so late . . okay there " mommy " . i understand his point of view though . im too tired to talk on the phone though . . which means that im too tired to settle things tonight . that's not usually me , but mehh . so now i'm home and im exhausted as fuck . on top of all this , i had some next student council vp shit to do at school + this *ahem that i'm planning .

NTS : find time today (sat) to start law cpt essay
ps . 537 , 637 ♥
+ MONTREAL LEGAL PARTYING 6 DAYS !
& i'll update pictures with this entry later on , stay posted :)

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Saturday, May 09, 2009

Torn in between the two

fuck . cynthia was right . there , i said it . why the hell does he have to be so cute and caring for ? why does he have to be the sweetest thing yet ? why does he happen to have the qualities that i've been looking for in a guy ? cute , sweet , smart , funny . . is going somewhere in life , has his own tshirt line , drives , focused , ugh everything ! FML . why does he have to come in my life now ? why do I* have to come into HIS now ? clearly this is bad timing . . . or is it ? this all may just be the 'right timing' . i'm confused as fuck . and so is he . so now what ? just go along with the flow and hope no one gets hurt ? are you shittin' me ? someone's bound to hurt , and he's mosdef too sweet to ever get hurt . his actions really do speak louder than words . this is what i look for in man . . not one with all words , but one who is mature enough to genuinely show it . and he does . . he really does . then there's mr. ifunaya who lives in tim buck two . fucking houston . . he obviously cannot physically show me that he cares . and yet , my feelings are still deep for him . . 1300 miles really is a test to see how far love can go . stupid me . stupid uncontrollable feelings . stupid distance . although it's very early , this guy is such a keeper already . . and he lives in canada . . in this country cotdammit ! why the hell does life happen this way ? who really knew china dude and i would be talking again ? after how long . . after how far he is . screw it . he's cute , we're cute . he's confused , i'm confused . he's fighting , i'm not . he's chillin , i'm bitchin . his gf - my bf . . at the end of the day , i'm still torn . .

+ MONTREAL LEGAL PARTYING 9 DAYS

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Wednesday, May 06, 2009